It’s getting late and I
can’t seem to find
my way home tonight.
Feels like I am falling down a rabbit hole,
falling for forever,
wonderfully wandering alone.
I feel so fucking awful right now. I’m having one of those days where I just wish you would just get the fuck out of my life. I don’t hate you, but I wish you’d grow a brain and stop thinking about yourself every ten seconds. I wish you would think about other people and the fact that they have feelings. I don’t think you ever realize that you sometimes hurt a lot of people’s feelings and crush self-esteem, in one of your moments of grouchiness. And I know I should excuse you, you don’t know any better, but I sometimes feel like you’ve had more than enough years to grow up and learn a thing or two about the people around you.
I don’t actually feel like I’m being oversensitive. I feel like you just lack tact and maybe you’re right and I need to learn how to accept my flaws being pointed out, with grace and humility. But I think you need to learn that sometimes, there is a right time and a right way to say things. You cannot simply say things just because you feel like it, because they just don’t get through to people if you explode about senselessly.
I know you think I’m flawed and screwed up. But I really think that you need to grow up as well, and being organized and consistent, doesn’t always make you mature and the perfect role model for me. I’m sorry if this isn’t something I should be thinking, but I do think that you need to give me space and just let me be a sixteen year old.
So please, for God’s sake,
Fuck off now (and close the door behind you)