Here is a picture of Emma Stone to brighten up this post. I like her, she gives off confident vibes. (:
Lately, I’ve been feeling like my life is pretty much a mess in most aspects. It’s definitely time to read the Christian book I got. I know, I’m not meant to be in control of everything. I know, I should just take things as they come. However, I think that I’m starting to stumble around blindly. I’m getting quite lost and confused and I need to find some sort of long term goal to work for.
So here are things I think should be sorted out:
1. Judging.
I think I judge people WAY too often and it kind of gets in the way of how I perceive them. I have a tendency to judge people, and I think it’s getting in the way of how I behave around people and treat them. Since, it’s pretty much impossible to know people completely, I should just be more receptive to what people say. Anyway, judging only leads to me being unhappy somehow, because I end up getting frustrated at them one way or the other. It would make more sense if I just listened to people without forming opinions of them and trying to fit them into some idea I have they are.
2. Self-Consciousness
I think I can be way to self-conscious. But somehow when I try not to care about people, I end up shutting them away and distancing myself too much. I guess it doesn’t make any sense to shut myself from people completely. I think I do need to protect certain things about me (like all the weird thoughts I put here), and I need to stop caring what people see me as. But at the same time, I need to be brave enough to keep facing people.
I definitely should try to be nicer to people. I should be more present for my friends and I kind of need to put myself out there. I need to learn how to protect myself while still being brave and not hiding entirely.
3. Humility.
Don’t think less of yourself, think of yourself less. Enough said.
I guess that’s pretty much what I need to say. I still don’t feel entirely convinced of what I wrote but I need to just keep going at it, even when the thoughts of my head are a bit foggy.
I think I might delete my blog.
